From Failing 11th to 0 Marks in NEET Physics: My Honest Journey
Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you try, you’re building your future on quicksand That was me. The Beginning: When the Foundation Was Already Cracked In 2022, while the world was slowly recovering from lockdown, I stepped into Class 11 with PCB (Physics, Chemistry, Biology). On paper, everything looked normal. In reality, my basics were already weak—not because I was incapable, but because my learning during the lockdown years had gaps I never addressed. I joined an online batch late, around August, with almost no guidance. Instead of fixing my basics, I slipped into something far more dangerous: fake productivity. The Illusion of Productivity At that time, I was also experimenting with being a study vlogger. I spent hours recording, editing, and posting “study” videos. From the outside, it looked disciplined. From the inside, it was empty.
I wasn’t truly studying. I wasn’t solving questions. I didn’t even know the names of many 11th-grade chapters properly. I was pretending—to others and to myself. That dishonesty had a cost. I failed Class 11.
The Second Attempt & The English Comfort Zone
In 2023, I repeated Class 11 at a local coaching institute. Things improved slightly, but the pattern didn’t completely change. I made school notebooks only to show teachers, not to learn from them. While PCB continued to slip, English became my safe space.
I topped my class in English and secured 3rd rank overall with around 70%. That success gave me confidence—but also a dangerous illusion: “Maybe I can manage 12th like this too.”
I was wrong. Class 12: Motivation, Holidays, and Backlogs Class 12 started with energy—about 10–15 days of seriousness. Then I went to my hometown for summer holidays, thinking I’d study there. Within 8 days, backlogs began: Two lectures per subject became many. Those backlogs were never completed. I didn’t practice PYQs. I relied heavily on one-shot lectures just to survive exams. Conceptual clarity was missing, but I kept moving forward anyway. My Class 12 Board Results English: 89/100 (disappointed—I expected 95+) Biology: 74/100 (surface learning) Physics: 67/100 Chemistry: 55/100 Overall: 74% It looked decent. But inside, there was a huge knowledge vacuum.
NEET 2025: Reality Hit Hard I appeared for NEET 2025 mainly for experience. The result reflected every shortcut I had taken. Physics: 0 (I didn’t attempt a single question) Total Score: Less than 200 That zero wasn’t just a mark—it was a mirror. You cannot crack a competitive exam without a foundation. The Drop Year: A New Start, New Doubts After the results, I decided to take a drop year. For the first time, I studied seriously—long study hours, lectures, practice, revision, rebuilding PCB from scratch. Then came doubts. Family suggested offline coaching. I started questioning myself: “Maybe I’m not made for online study.” “Maybe that’s why I wasted my 11th and 12th.” And that’s where the real struggle began—not just with books, but with decisions.
From failure to entering the drop year... Hmm struggle
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